i wen...

i went to this gathering with a bunch of women.. most of them being old friends, others almost seeming to be sluts, but down-to-earth sluts which did make them sexy but i still had to put up with them... they were mere aquaintances... somewhere during the 4 hour chit-chat one of the girls brought up celebrities and personal stories of getting illegally involved, angelina jolie and biance of destinys child came about and how sexy they were.. the entire room was practically filled with women and they started talking about fucking women which surprised me but i was attentive to what was going on even during my side conversations.. i doubted anyone was or would admit to their bi or les sexuality.. even though i believe everyone is gay in their own level... but i enjoed hearing them argue over who they would fuck and how entirely beautiful each woman is... i remember some talking about their posters all over their room.. it made me wonder if the posters were hung to turn on their boyfriends or they actually hung them for themselves... some of them even said, "she makes me a dyke" heh i didnt feel like putting in my input but i enjoyed listening.. anyway they were pretty crazy later on they started punching each others breasts which i thought why dont you make out already! overall it was a pretty interesting time.. i've talked to some girls i've seen but never talked to and there was a lot of eye contact and smiles.. which i hate because i dont know what theyre thinking.. either theyre flirting or thinking something like what color is her hair which really pisses me off because i dont know what body language i should respond with... uggh! i was able to spend time with a friend i havent seen in years, he was so awesome.. we went to this restaurant and well it was just nice.. i dont think i was cheating hehe.. this guy was like an old friend that of course i still have feelings somewhat for, but i still was thinking of my bf of course phone is ringing :)damn i want a gf :( .. how do i know when a girl is throwing me vibes... i get confused when theyre so damn nice..help?

commitments ar...

commitments are bad... uggh

i love ...

i love the darkness and gloom the clouds give when it rains.. the smell of pollution driven away, the sounds of the pattering of water almost everywhere playing music like an orchestra, and the wetness... it makes me all warm inside

its rai...

its raining yay!!! gonna go do the "soup" thing =D

all...

all good in the hood now... wow what am i listening to?!

ouchj...

ouchjust got into an argument with my mother, i offended her and now i feel guilty... damn i hate this... going through situations like this for years with the same person i would think you would know how to solve the problem... i'm so selfish shit!!!!!!